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Oct. 18th, 2010 06:18 pmTrying to stop procrastinating. You can see how well this is working for me. :\
Trying to gather the spoons to talk about gender identity or something idk. I realized that I chose the username Swordage what, ten years ago, because it was gender-neutral. It was my first exposure to the internet and I didn't even know it was possible to have a different gender than the one you were physically born in, nevermind a non-binary one, but I didn't want to be seen as a boy or a girl online. I went through a phase in middle school where I wanted to change my name to a gender-neutral one and, when possible, insisted on being addressed by such a name. I went by Aquafresh for a while because I was just that desperate. Even now my chosen nicknames are L and Lex, also gender-neutral. HEY SELF, MAYBE IT IS OKAY TO ADMIT THAT YOU IDENTIFY AS GENDER-NEUTRAL, EVEN IF YOU ARE COMFORTABLE WITH YOUR PHYSICAL BODY BEING A GIVEN SEX.
oh hey look at that I talked about gender identity by accident oops guess I'll just leave that there
so uh anyway. Sideswipe and Sunstreaker are power-squatting on my desk. Or maybe pelvic thrusting? I am not entirely clear on the specifics of this situation. And I have my laptop, lab notebook, and Nostalgia on my desk. Contrary to what you may expect, Nostalgia is not on either of the other two items. She is in fact finally using the fluffy bed I got her. She really likes where it is - she has the perfect view of the bird feeder, all she has to do is open her eyes, and I'm right next to her and pet her now and then. All is well on the home front.
...Except that I have two reports to write tonight. Sigh. Come on, self, you can do this... Skip the busywork of writing out the procedure for now, do the discussion/analysis while you're still awake. Then do the Ecology lab essay, and then come back and do the busywork in the Chem lab report. Okay. We can do this. Alright, Prowl, help me out here! I need some motivation, some assistance, some logical insight into -
Oh noooooooooooooo
Trying to gather the spoons to talk about gender identity or something idk. I realized that I chose the username Swordage what, ten years ago, because it was gender-neutral. It was my first exposure to the internet and I didn't even know it was possible to have a different gender than the one you were physically born in, nevermind a non-binary one, but I didn't want to be seen as a boy or a girl online. I went through a phase in middle school where I wanted to change my name to a gender-neutral one and, when possible, insisted on being addressed by such a name. I went by Aquafresh for a while because I was just that desperate. Even now my chosen nicknames are L and Lex, also gender-neutral. HEY SELF, MAYBE IT IS OKAY TO ADMIT THAT YOU IDENTIFY AS GENDER-NEUTRAL, EVEN IF YOU ARE COMFORTABLE WITH YOUR PHYSICAL BODY BEING A GIVEN SEX.
so uh anyway. Sideswipe and Sunstreaker are power-squatting on my desk. Or maybe pelvic thrusting? I am not entirely clear on the specifics of this situation. And I have my laptop, lab notebook, and Nostalgia on my desk. Contrary to what you may expect, Nostalgia is not on either of the other two items. She is in fact finally using the fluffy bed I got her. She really likes where it is - she has the perfect view of the bird feeder, all she has to do is open her eyes, and I'm right next to her and pet her now and then. All is well on the home front.
...Except that I have two reports to write tonight. Sigh. Come on, self, you can do this... Skip the busywork of writing out the procedure for now, do the discussion/analysis while you're still awake. Then do the Ecology lab essay, and then come back and do the busywork in the Chem lab report. Okay. We can do this. Alright, Prowl, help me out here! I need some motivation, some assistance, some logical insight into -
Oh noooooooooooooo
